
Recently God is teaching me humility. I am experiencing the worst massage in my life. He finds the tight spots and is pressing in until that junk is out and it is more than just a few spots at one time. He is taking this hard potato that I am and making me mashed potatoes so that I can be formed to what He wants. I know that sounds like a weird analogy but just when I think that life is going to calm down the Lord wakes me up in the middle of the night to tell me something else. I am getting "boiled" in everything from my relationship with my husband, to being a better with our finances to being a good neighbor. I think that God has to wake me up in the middle of the night to get my attention some times. Last night at 3:30am (Mike is working 6pm to 6am shift this week) Sarah woke up screaming (shrieking). If you know my daughter God gave her a very good set of lungs. When I went in her room to calm her I realized that the hot tub was running and I hadn't heard it shut off. Well, Harley (our dog) ruined the cover that came with it and so Mike made a homemade one that was made out of plywood so that he could stand on it and not ruin the cover. Well, that did not work very well. So I prayed that God would provide a hot tub cover. Then I try going back to sleep. Oh no, then I am thinking about my awful looking lawn that has not been raked and thinking how horrible it looks. I live in a pretty high class neighborhood here on 4th Ave N where most people on our block pay to have their yards done. Of course I can make all of the excuses in the world of why I don't have time to rake my lawn. Like... I don't know if I can leave Sarah in the house alone, this is Mike's responsibility, its windy, its cold, I don't have time. Meanwhile the Lord is "mashing" me and telling me what a horrible neighbor I am and that I need to be a light in this dark place. But that means that in January I am going to have to go outside and rake my lawn when everyone else on the block already has it done! I have asked Him for help. He told me to get up and send a text message to the young adults and see if they would help me. Well, of course, I said that I would do it in the morning. It needed to be done NOW. I can think of a million things that need to be done inside my house but I felt like the Lord was telling me that He is working from the outside in. Just like in my life. I praise the Lord that He is guiding me into humility (even in the middle of the night). Now I just need prayer.